03-21-2021, 12:25 AM
I aint trying to take steal your thunder, but,
I remember that kind of harmony. I also remember disharmony. The best thing was, no matter the disharmony, we always wound up with the harmonious solution which, usually meant "Mama was right". I always knew, no matter what, that if I had a doubt, Michelle had the right answer...
Now, I have to make decisions alone and I don't really trust myself any further than I could throw me (or a 200lb sack of stuff). I'm trying to do right by Miss Judi, my mother in law and my daughter, my Marvelous Miss Megan (As a testimony to her Mama, she has her shit together far beyond your average 18 year old)
My entire growing up was a continual violation of trust; from my narcissistic mother to my "hero" Dad who, would bail and go get into one of his hobbies when the shit got more fucked up than he could process. Because, I knew I was dysfunctional, I was very sober and guarded with respect to keeping my (still not resolved) issues from affecting my kids as we were raising them. Michelle was invaluable in that process.
She was a damn good 'un, and I tell you what, I would have flattened any man who dared say different but,,,, nobody could.
My woman put a lot of work into bringing good cheer to the patients she had to deal with on a daily basis, many of whom were downright ornery. That, and being Mama was her calling, her mission. I believe she did alright on that score. And,
most amazingly of all, she stood by me.
It leaves me, the loneliest man in world.
I remember that kind of harmony. I also remember disharmony. The best thing was, no matter the disharmony, we always wound up with the harmonious solution which, usually meant "Mama was right". I always knew, no matter what, that if I had a doubt, Michelle had the right answer...
Now, I have to make decisions alone and I don't really trust myself any further than I could throw me (or a 200lb sack of stuff). I'm trying to do right by Miss Judi, my mother in law and my daughter, my Marvelous Miss Megan (As a testimony to her Mama, she has her shit together far beyond your average 18 year old)
My entire growing up was a continual violation of trust; from my narcissistic mother to my "hero" Dad who, would bail and go get into one of his hobbies when the shit got more fucked up than he could process. Because, I knew I was dysfunctional, I was very sober and guarded with respect to keeping my (still not resolved) issues from affecting my kids as we were raising them. Michelle was invaluable in that process.
She was a damn good 'un, and I tell you what, I would have flattened any man who dared say different but,,,, nobody could.
My woman put a lot of work into bringing good cheer to the patients she had to deal with on a daily basis, many of whom were downright ornery. That, and being Mama was her calling, her mission. I believe she did alright on that score. And,
most amazingly of all, she stood by me.
It leaves me, the loneliest man in world.