The Adversary

[IainH]

Has his hand on me heavy. He's older, smarter, and knows me better than I know myself and can cater an effup customized just to fit me and I won't realize it until it's done been done. I'm tired of being sucker punched and being reactive in the face of his assaults. I wake at 5 am and I get ready and go get Nana up, fix her breakfast, check her sugar and give her, her insulin shot then, I go to work. When I get home I slump into a funk and read for hours to distract my self from my increasingly impenetrable anxiety that feels like the world is "off". There are things I need to do and everytime I approach them I get such high anxiety that I have to back off and it sets me back a week or more. The only thing that makes sense is demonic oppression, it is an encroachment on my domain. Pray with me that this is lifted.

[jaybreak]

We will pray, but if you're noticing the world is off (which it is), that means you're having an episode of lucidity. Yet the anxiety doesn't help things, does it?

[Ed Hurst]

This sounds familiar. As always, I could be wrong, but test this, Brother: You are in a Gethsemane Garden moment. Some part of you needs to go to the Cross, and it's not happy. You are the only human who knows what that might be, so I suggest we pray that the Lord show you. Some part of you already knows the answer, but it's not conscious yet.

[IainH]

This sounds familiar. As always, I could be wrong, but test this, Brother: You are in a Gethsemane Garden moment. Some part of you needs to go to the Cross, and it's not happy. You are the only human who knows what that might be, so I suggest we pray that the Lord show you. Some part of you already knows the answer, but it's not conscious yet.

  I know exactly where  the wall is but, I ain't about to blabber it online. It is the simplest thing but, it's just, I don't know everytime I go near it. It's very hard to explain and the "experts" opinions don't cut it.

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I'll add this: I thought it was a purely psychological block until well, the first thing I did when it was revealed to me that it was also a spiritual battle perhaps even solely a spiritual battle was to reach out here. Other believers can pray, they tell me they do but,...who knows so many just say what they have to or think you want to hear in the moment.

[IainH]

Praises be! I did it, that thing. The fervent effectual prayer of a righteous man availeth much.

[Ed Hurst]

Amen, Brother. It's good to hear back that our prayers have done their work.