A Heavy Burden

[Ed Hurst]

I don't mean to overload you folks with so much written blather demanding your attention, but once I finished the curriculum, it was like a dam broke.

In recent weeks the Lord has moved in my convictions to reshape my expectations. I've lost the desire to ride my bike, except as mere transportation. I've been walking a lot more, but not so much with the drive to become fit, but just to get out and pray. I'm a lot less interested in computers, and yet my work recently has been ever more dependent on them. I'm being honed, as Linda says.

More to the point, that vision of me presenting the curriculum to various small audiences across the country keeps getting stronger. Even if I have to do this traveling on my bike and couch-surfing along the way, I'm ready to do this. But as previously noted, it's more likely this thing won't get started without some kind of external source. There first has to be some kind of interest out there, some kind of awareness that Radix Fidem exists, which seems to be missing right now. There have to be invites. Secondly, I honestly believe it will require some kind of sponsorship. While I'm willing, I don't think riding my bike is the way it will happen. Linda joked about having an RV, but that's probably quite realistic. That or some other way of taking this show on the road.

This is the part that becomes a prayer request: It's possible I have the wrong idea about this whole thing, but I can't imagine doing this any other way. I'm ready to travel and share this message, and it needs to get out there. But God has not provided any resources just yet. There's a pretty big gap between current reality and the vision of doing this kind of work. If this is going to happen in any way at all, it starts now with prayer.

[IainH]

I don't mean to overload you folks with so much written blather demanding your attention, but once I finished the curriculum, it was like a dam broke.

In recent weeks the Lord has moved in my convictions to reshape my expectations. I've lost the desire to ride my bike, except as mere transportation. I've been walking a lot more, but not so much with the drive to become fit, but just to get out and pray. I'm a lot less interested in computers, and yet my work recently has been ever more dependent on them. I'm being honed, as Linda says.

More to the point, that vision of me presenting the curriculum to various small audiences across the country keeps getting stronger. Even if I have to do this traveling on my bike and couch-surfing along the way, I'm ready to do this. But as previously noted, it's more likely this thing won't get started without some kind of external source. There first has to be some kind of interest out there, some kind of awareness that Radix Fidem exists, which seems to be missing right now. There have to be invites. Secondly, I honestly believe it will require some kind of sponsorship. While I'm willing, I don't think riding my bike is the way it will happen. Linda joked about having an RV, but that's probably quite realistic. That or some other way of taking this show on the road.

This is the part that becomes a prayer request: It's possible I have the wrong idea about this whole thing, but I can't imagine doing this any other way. I'm ready to travel and share this message, and it needs to get out there. But God has not provided any resources just yet. There's a pretty big gap between current reality and the vision of doing this kind of work. If this is going to happen in any way at all, it starts now with prayer.

I understand. I feel the pull of the Spirit "Go forth". My problem is; I'm not a leader but, I am good at carrying out the orders of my superiors. Say " here's what needs done" and I get it done, I'm an able lieutenant. Like Stonewall Jackson to General Lee.

[jaybreak]

We will pray with you, of course. On the surface, to me, the entire idea seems like an obvious next step, but we know God doesn't work like that sometimes (most of the time?). But you have the drive to do it for some reason. We're with you as that becomes determined.

[forrealone]

Father has this as we all know.  His methods are His secret, known only to those with whom He shares it.  As it was since the beginning, His will shall be made manifest in His time.  How or whether we are a part of it, He will make it known.  This drive that He has planted in us will bear fruit in His time and His way.  For now, may we give Him the glory for even the smallest of roles He gives us to have.

To God be the glory!