Wenzdy Prar.

[IainH]

I've bin sick, it's acactacacting ACTING like flu does when it trize 2 take me out.. At first throat tickle, I hit the ColdEze. It kills your taste buds wit zanc, sorry zinc. It'll back off. Then, just when I think I got it whipped it comes back with a vengeance. It did that last night. My dear sweet understanding "soulmate from Hell" instead of checking mme for fever accused me of being high on dope. What a gal, they just don't make 'em like that anymore..PHEW! Creation gives a sigh of relief.Bat Dung mental. I accept full blame because it will wind up getting nailed with it anyway through some passive aggressive pish posh.Dear Lord God Jesus Christ, I think I'm done here. Please take me before I explode in an orgy of violence.




Dramie Queen.

[Ed Hurst]

Keep a grip on it, Bro. We are praying for you.

[IainH]

Keep a grip on it, Bro. We are praying for you.

Feverish rambling, its down below 100 now. I  had no intention of posting that. Musta hit wrong button. It was around 4:30 yesterday afternoon I laid down and prayed myself to sleep. When I woke up, I was sick as a dog and some people have the empathy of a tick.

[IainH]

Feeling better........... I become one of two things when I catch colds. If the cold is mild,without fever, I am strong, the self sacrificing master of my domain. If the cold is bad enough and accompanied by fever, I'm a big, delirious baby. 
    My first post was made in the midst of feverish delirium. I was disrespectful of my wife and that was wrong regardless of my state at the time. My perception of the conversation was wrong. Some of my medications can be dangerous if I take too many. She was concerned and I took it as a slap and reacted in a mean and petulant manner.
 
  I considered deleting the whole thing............mmm... No, it stays.
 
 God gave me the Faith to Believe, to receive Grace. Paid for by His self sacrifice. I post here because my friends are here, people who know me better than most people in "meat space" (note; that phrase makes me cringe, it is de-humanizing but, at the same time astonishingly accurate).
  I'm quite sure there are more readers than posters here. So why????? would I lay myself open to strangers?
It's not about me, it's about an approach to religion so far outside the mainstream as to be alien to adherents of the mainstream. Indecipherable to and quite possibly heretical to Western Christianity.
  Read 1 Corinthians 1:18-31........( in my silly world a line of dots mean a pause to reflect or this case waiting while you read because what follows  is dependent on you doing so)......
Ok, you read it, I operate using the honor system. Two things I hope will jump out.
1: God uses cracked pots (I've always liked that albeit a title to a "Christian" best seller , I've never read)
2: God chooses you, not the other way around.
    I'm the most sorry lump of inferior clay the Potter has potted. Of this, I'm in no doubt. The upside to this is God spends a lot of time on this pot. My Dad alluded to a wood carvers starting with a block and whittling it down to a finished carving. After he was gone, God showed me how right Dad was.
 It is because of my weakness, my foolishness that God uses me. He says that this is where I belong. So I share with everyone who reads this stuff, my weirdness, acute weirdness, congenital, environmental and terminal weirdness. 
  My prayer is that the Lord use my oftentimes bizzare posts to touch the hearts of those who are reaching beyond the prison of Western Evangelicalism and into the light of a heart centered covenant with our saviour Jesus Christ.
   Warts, scars and imperfections are vital to Gods works. Grey hair and weather beaten faces and hands were once venerated signs of wisdom, a lifetime of valuable lessons. Observe the Evangelical "rockstars" all facelifts, hair dye and botox.  Who do they serve? Remember Jesus and the rich young ruler.

[Ed Hurst]

The fallen face I see in the mirror also makes me cringe, but it's the me I have to deal with while I'm here. That's the mission. The big joy here is that we can afford to be real, to reveal and discuss the horrors of what we find inside ourselves with like-minded souls who don't pretend they are any better. I'm surely not. I'm glad we have this forum.

[forrealone]

Yes, I am very grateful for and blessed by all of you.  Albeit you are men (slight chuckle), I feel comfortable speaking and revealing to you my inner self. 

I mention the "men" part because as we all know, men and women are different.  I would love to see more input from other women, but I don't mind standing alone.  For now.

Each of you brings a special gift to our forum.  Thank you!!

[IainH]

Yes, I am very grateful for and blessed by all of you.  Albeit you are men (slight chuckle), I feel comfortable speaking and revealing to you my inner self. 

I mention the "men" part because as we all know, men and women are different.  I would love to see more input from other women, but I don't mind standing alone.  For now.

Each of you brings a special gift to our forum.  Thank you!!

 You are the big sister I never had. I thank the Lord you are here. You've blessed me here and through pm's. I pray for more like you.
 Thanks to all for your prayers. My immune system is doing it's thing, I should be fully bettered soon. There is a rumbly in my tumbly, that ain't saying "I'm hungry". I think it wants to clear room for nourishment. Until that issue is resolved I shall be tethered to the house.

[jaybreak]

Yes, I am very grateful for and blessed by all of you.  Albeit you are men (slight chuckle), I feel comfortable speaking and revealing to you my inner self. 

I mention the "men" part because as we all know, men and women are different.  I would love to see more input from other women, but I don't mind standing alone.  For now.

Each of you brings a special gift to our forum.  Thank you!!

"men and women are different" - Careful! You treading dangerous ice here, giving voice to something very obvious

Glad you are here, as always, L. 

I'm always glad Iain posts these ramblings. I swear we need more of this certain kind in the church at large.

[forrealone]

Yes, I am very grateful for and blessed by all of you.  Albeit you are men (slight chuckle), I feel comfortable speaking and revealing to you my inner self. 

I mention the "men" part because as we all know, men and women are different.  I would love to see more input from other women, but I don't mind standing alone.  For now.

Each of you brings a special gift to our forum.  Thank you!!

 You are the big sister I never had. I thank the Lord you are here. You've blessed me here and through pm's. I pray for more like you.     Well, that really was nice of you to say, Iain.  It warmed my heart more than you could ever know!

 Thanks to all for your prayers. My immune system is doing it's thing, I should be fully bettered soon. There is a rumbly in my tumbly, that ain't saying "I'm hungry". I think it wants to clear room for nourishment. Until that issue is resolved I shall be tethered to the house.