04-01-2019, 04:48 AM
I know the sense of frustration, too. Nobody around here where I live will open up to faith right now. My ideal times of mission activity have all been in the military, and the last episode was early 1993. I've been hankering for something similar ever since. I've come pretty close to giving up on life quite a few times since then. Perhaps not in the sense of suicide, but something just as stupid. The only thing that keeps me going right now is this group in one hand, and the overwhelming prophetic sense of mission in the other. I keep begging God for one more mission adventure, and I've come down to leaving that door wide open, no strings attached. "Anything at all, Lord!" I know it's coming, so I keep hanging on, but it sure has gotten boring waiting for it.