I was being mischievous y'all. I knew exactly what Ed meant. I lost my gregariousness when I lost Michelle and although I tried not to, I was short with people sometimes and seeing as how I was transformed from being an often antagonistic* to a more open man by the grace of God, to see that gift diminished by grief was disturbing to me.
* I liked to irritate and, when I was successful, it was a gotcha moment. Always with people I know, it's that "breaking thine stones" thing that human males like to do.
PS. If you don't like small talk, I understand because, I always hated it myself. Then the Lord said "hey! be nice to people, be exceedingly glad even when you don't feel that way and you will be a blessing." "Listen without thinking of your answer and I will give you what to say." "I need you to be "a perfect and upright man who, fears God and eschews evil" and you better believe I immediately recognized that was from Job which means to me that I have the Lord's favor. Some might find it strange that, my hearts desire is to lay down my life for Christ as a martyr for me there's no greater glory than to do so.
* I liked to irritate and, when I was successful, it was a gotcha moment. Always with people I know, it's that "breaking thine stones" thing that human males like to do.
PS. If you don't like small talk, I understand because, I always hated it myself. Then the Lord said "hey! be nice to people, be exceedingly glad even when you don't feel that way and you will be a blessing." "Listen without thinking of your answer and I will give you what to say." "I need you to be "a perfect and upright man who, fears God and eschews evil" and you better believe I immediately recognized that was from Job which means to me that I have the Lord's favor. Some might find it strange that, my hearts desire is to lay down my life for Christ as a martyr for me there's no greater glory than to do so.