07-27-2021, 05:45 AM
Has his hand on me heavy. He's older, smarter, and knows me better than I know myself and can cater an effup customized just to fit me and I won't realize it until it's done been done. I'm tired of being sucker punched and being reactive in the face of his assaults. I wake at 5 am and I get ready and go get Nana up, fix her breakfast, check her sugar and give her, her insulin shot then, I go to work. When I get home I slump into a funk and read for hours to distract my self from my increasingly impenetrable anxiety that feels like the world is "off". There are things I need to do and everytime I approach them I get such high anxiety that I have to back off and it sets me back a week or more. The only thing that makes sense is demonic oppression, it is an encroachment on my domain. Pray with me that this is lifted.