01-08-2020, 04:19 PM
I've been troubled lately and I don't know why. All the tools that I have used throughout my life have come up short. For whatever purposes God has, He ain't talking. Perhaps, I'm not hearing?
I gave up on looking for "signs of the times" years ago when I realized that the times have been the same since Jesus' ascension, it could be today or 1000 years. So The only signs that I see are ones that point to bad news for the US and changes are on the way. But, change is constant.
I don't like January, it puts me in a funk until I start seeing the first signs of spring so, I stay busy as much as possible. Many times, I've started a post only to say bleh and close the window. I don't have anything to add, it seems that I must wait and being patient takes effort, more so than doing.
We are never as important as we like to think we are and we often confuse our will as God's. He requires submission but, rather than submit we focus on ritual. The ritual was to point our hearts to God but, the ritual became God and people are heavily invested in the ritual. There is no more ritual, there is God and you. He can touch you anywhere and at anytime but, for that to happen you must submit and to be able to submit, you must be broken. I resist being broken. I'm not sure whether that is part of my conditioning as an American man, "suck it up, buttercup" the rugged individual John Wayne thing or just my own stubbornness. I do know it's not helpful but, hey I'm trying not to try, if that makes any sense at all.
I gave up on looking for "signs of the times" years ago when I realized that the times have been the same since Jesus' ascension, it could be today or 1000 years. So The only signs that I see are ones that point to bad news for the US and changes are on the way. But, change is constant.
I don't like January, it puts me in a funk until I start seeing the first signs of spring so, I stay busy as much as possible. Many times, I've started a post only to say bleh and close the window. I don't have anything to add, it seems that I must wait and being patient takes effort, more so than doing.
We are never as important as we like to think we are and we often confuse our will as God's. He requires submission but, rather than submit we focus on ritual. The ritual was to point our hearts to God but, the ritual became God and people are heavily invested in the ritual. There is no more ritual, there is God and you. He can touch you anywhere and at anytime but, for that to happen you must submit and to be able to submit, you must be broken. I resist being broken. I'm not sure whether that is part of my conditioning as an American man, "suck it up, buttercup" the rugged individual John Wayne thing or just my own stubbornness. I do know it's not helpful but, hey I'm trying not to try, if that makes any sense at all.