Time to end this. The last installment of trying to figger out when I became heart led. I don't know precisely, it came on in pieces like a puzzle. Certain things happened that caused me to question the utility of American Christianity. I've been over them before. Cancer lay off cancer death, more cancer, more death.
I've never just accepted what I was told, I had to check it's veracity. It turns out, this was and still is a good thing. I was certain that there was something I was missing, I was aware the heart was special and I had read some medical research, which I re-read when I read your books Ed. I discovered the heart math institute which sounded a lot like scientology. I actually read dianetics in the 80's and thought "people actually believe this shit". L Ron Hubbard was a great sci fi author, I liked his fiction which, is what the cult of scientology is, pure fiction created by a psychopathic megalomaniac and currently run by a different psychopathic megalomaniac. I had pieces of like, three different puzzles and I was determined to find what I was looking for. One thing really bugged me was the jingoism of the church. They were ra ra ing murder. It was the period of drone strikes which, I found appalling. I can remember the day clearly when I was so disgusted I binged "Christians who don't believe America is God's chosen country". I found your blog Ed! I don't remember the post topic or the date, maybe spring 2015? It had to be because I told my Dad about what I was reading and he thought it made sense. Reading the books and what not, stirred my heart and I knew that this covenant was what I was missing. There never was any doubt. All the events in my life was leading me to this. The only regret I have is I didn't have the time left to enjoy it with Pops. He was naturally heart led, he always had it. It was in every lesson he taught. I wasn't aware of how much God used him until it was revealed to me after he died. With good old hindsight, we can see ourselves as foolish for not seeing what should have been obvious. After discussing with Dad matters concerning, the revelation of the hearts true purpose, He did something I had never seen before. My dear ol' Pop started studying scripture, by then he didn't have much time left but, he was at peace. He had fought the good fight and was ready to meet his maker. The Grace given to my Dad, gives me another motivation to follow the way of Jesus Christ and carry out the mission he has laid before me.
There is no greater joy than to be obedient to his will. In doing the things He requires, my heart can sense His joy in my obedience, "well done, good and faithful servant". I don't know of a greater blessing than to hear those words. Amen.
PS. This post is too serious, I must fix by speaking UPT* "HABASHALA HABITALA...WOOO! THE HOLY GHOST IS HERE TONIGHTAH! HASHALABABILIBA!"
*Universal Phony Tongues; consists of meaningless babbling. Intended to fool suckers into dropping their cash.
I've never just accepted what I was told, I had to check it's veracity. It turns out, this was and still is a good thing. I was certain that there was something I was missing, I was aware the heart was special and I had read some medical research, which I re-read when I read your books Ed. I discovered the heart math institute which sounded a lot like scientology. I actually read dianetics in the 80's and thought "people actually believe this shit". L Ron Hubbard was a great sci fi author, I liked his fiction which, is what the cult of scientology is, pure fiction created by a psychopathic megalomaniac and currently run by a different psychopathic megalomaniac. I had pieces of like, three different puzzles and I was determined to find what I was looking for. One thing really bugged me was the jingoism of the church. They were ra ra ing murder. It was the period of drone strikes which, I found appalling. I can remember the day clearly when I was so disgusted I binged "Christians who don't believe America is God's chosen country". I found your blog Ed! I don't remember the post topic or the date, maybe spring 2015? It had to be because I told my Dad about what I was reading and he thought it made sense. Reading the books and what not, stirred my heart and I knew that this covenant was what I was missing. There never was any doubt. All the events in my life was leading me to this. The only regret I have is I didn't have the time left to enjoy it with Pops. He was naturally heart led, he always had it. It was in every lesson he taught. I wasn't aware of how much God used him until it was revealed to me after he died. With good old hindsight, we can see ourselves as foolish for not seeing what should have been obvious. After discussing with Dad matters concerning, the revelation of the hearts true purpose, He did something I had never seen before. My dear ol' Pop started studying scripture, by then he didn't have much time left but, he was at peace. He had fought the good fight and was ready to meet his maker. The Grace given to my Dad, gives me another motivation to follow the way of Jesus Christ and carry out the mission he has laid before me.
There is no greater joy than to be obedient to his will. In doing the things He requires, my heart can sense His joy in my obedience, "well done, good and faithful servant". I don't know of a greater blessing than to hear those words. Amen.
PS. This post is too serious, I must fix by speaking UPT* "HABASHALA HABITALA...WOOO! THE HOLY GHOST IS HERE TONIGHTAH! HASHALABABILIBA!"
*Universal Phony Tongues; consists of meaningless babbling. Intended to fool suckers into dropping their cash.