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Trying to Read My Own Heart - Ed Hurst - 05-31-2018
One of the things I frankly fear is that folks would get an inflated view of me. When that happens, it seems they stop trying to learn and claim their own blessings from God. I'm not that special, just somewhere a short distance down the same road ahead of you, and only in just a few things, at that.
It's one thing when someone argues with me about something I post on my blog. It's another thing when their argument is eloquent and impassioned. It causes me to go back and pray and make sure I can trace the steps in my mind that brought me to the place where I could write what I did. That is, I sense the need to double check to make sure what's in my heart still leads me to that mental image and the words I chose. I'm quite willing to come under conviction for making a mistake and trying to correct it. Some of the things people argue with are simply too deeply rooted in my thinking. Sometimes I can't easily remember how I came to that conclusion.
But God has been consistently merciful in helping me trace those things back, and often adds further clarification that only reinforces my position. For example: twenty years ago I was utterly certain the US was doomed. Indeed, I was convinced in my soul that there was no turning back. Since then, that image has taken on some refinement; it's grown more prominent and clear. More than five years ago I sensed that there would be a right-wing backlash in America's future, with bloodshed a certainty. I still believe that. But for the longest time since that took shape in my mind, I was unable to say for sure what was behind that. All I knew is that it was a conviction slowly exposed to my awareness.
After today's post raised an eloquent objection, I went back and prayed. Where was this coming from? Here's what came to light: I sense in the moral realm the blind and visceral hatred of the American left for the right. Now, in countless sources of commentary, you could find folks writing about that, so it would seem obvious intellectually. However, I felt it burning in my heart as an eternal moral truth, that the Devil was on this like arson. It's not just a logical proposition; I feel it in my bones, taste it in my saliva. And because it comes from that source -- my heart -- it offers implications that reason can't find. So when I read commentary that notes this implacable division in American thinking, it simply gives shape to something I already sensed outside my conscious mind.
I'm not suggesting the right-wing is morally better; this is still the West we are talking about. But I also know from experience that righties see no need to hate like that. Somewhere along the path to where we are now, they have maintained a general willingness to negotiate and compromise. Have you noticed that virtually nothing significant has changed in recent decades when "conservatives" win control of Congress? The Court? But when lefties win, stuff does change; they don't waste the opportunity. And they do it with a vindictive flourish.
But they aren't armed. Here in America they have always relied on the hired guns of law enforcement to make things happen. They aren't like the Red Brigades, even if they are just a shade shy of communist at times. Their revolution depends on the system, a system they intend to take over completely. They are willing to do it piecemeal, but they are determined to win at all costs. There is not a single moral or ethical barrier they won't violate in the process. This thing is like a big horse ridden by a demon with a spiked quirt. Not many commentators see it in such stark terms.
Don't make the mistake of thinking I hate the lefties. I see them as victims of one of Satan's damnedest lies. Nor do I love the righties. But I do sense what's behind them in terms of demons and angels and the divine moral character of God. God will hit the lefties first, but He has harsh plans for the righties, as well. Their problem is imperial arrogance too big for words.
So I sense that vast glowing volcano of left-wing hatred in the moral realm and my mind sees no way this can keep smoldering without eventually blowing up. In the context of the current efforts to deal with an unanticipated problem -- Trump -- I don't see how they can keep from pushing things too far. My sense of right-wing tolerance says it's near the limits. I remain utterly certain that, had Clinton won, the shooting would have already started, with some of those bearing the government's sword in mutiny and things generally in chaos. In short, it would be an apocalypse. But my heart insists that God said this was unnecessary.
And to be honest, at least one factor in His changing His mind was that some tipping point was reached in the number of folks who embraced the heart-led way. Keep in mind that I did not dream up this teaching; I got it from somewhere else and simply recognized it for the truth. I seized upon it and pushed it with fervor after discovering how it answered so many questions. I intend to take full advantage of this, though I confess it's not yet obvious what that will look like because there are so very many big changes ahead of us. But while it will be painful, it won't be an apocalypse because He intends to reassert the teaching of the heart-led way. He has big plans for that.
So while I cannot say with heart-led certainty that there will be a civil war in America soon, what I can say is that it seems the only obvious result from the things my heart does tell me. Yep, that much is just my opinion, my interpretation of the things I cannot question: the unspeakable left-wing hatred, the monumental right-wing arrogance, and God's wrath falling on the US.
RE: Trying to Read My Own Heart - IainH - 06-01-2018
I've read and heard at sundry times and in diverse manners* the decline and fall of the American Empire compared to ancient Rome. Personally, having studied history for as long as I can remember, I don't see it relating much to any ancient civilization except for aspects peculiar to empires in general. If we wish to seek commonalities, we need only look back in recent history to the country whose empire we inherited, Great Britain. At the beginning of the twentieth century, the sun never set on the British Empire and their navy was the master of the seven seas. Two world wars and the great depression wiped their empire out and we took over. How many Brits saw that coming in 1900? A handful, perhaps? I'm not saying this is how it'll go down, I'm offering it up as a recent example of the collapse of a western empire.
* Yeah I ripped off Hebrews 1:1.
RE: Trying to Read My Own Heart - jaybreak - 06-03-2018
One thing that may help clarify: we at Radix Fidem can have some sympathy for political outliers. In modern American politics, this equates to some alt-right proponents. Though "their guy" won the election, there's plenty of power-holders that are dead set against the alt-right political movement. In this sense, alt-righters are a populist/nationalist movement vs the ungodly wave of globalism. In earlier political eras, we find sympathy with the counter-cultural movement of the 60s and 70s, or the anti-war movement of WWI. There could be a great number of unsavory characters involved with those periods, but can find useful ideas in anything that is contra whatever the current power-holders have designed for us.
RF members: tell me where I went wrong with this.
RE: Trying to Read My Own Heart - Ed Hurst - 06-04-2018
No wrong that I can see, Jay. Because of our affinity to a form of government few take seriously, we stand outside the system. We stand in a unique position to critique and criticize those in power, and express empathy for the underdogs. We don't have to embrace the mistakes of the underdogs to realize we are lumped in with them by those in power. I've noted in the past that the globalists own the public forum, which puts the alt-right at a disadvantage. It opens the latter to the same oppression we face. It's hard not to empathize.
RE: Trying to Read My Own Heart - jaybreak - 06-05-2018
Thanks for the input.
I don't support the alt-right, but I do sympathize with them. Materially, any underdog will have a keen eye for what's wrong with the system. Radix Fidem types don't need that info since we already assume worldly systems are rigged against us by default, but I (at least) find effective ways of expressing the assumption through whatever underdog movement is currently the most high-profile. Our content is the same but the style may change.